A Little Perspective for You and Me

What am I doing this for? I’m spending much of my little free time lately huddled in front of a PC and some speakers listening to the same song over and over and over. It’s the very same song I recently spent hours trying to play the perfect guitar part for, the perfect bass guitar part for, and creating the perfect drum arrangement for.

Well, it’s less than perfect. I’m not even going to try to kid anyone with that description. I’m not a bassist for one thing. I like to think I can feign my way through it for the sake of recording a complete song. The guitars are good. That’s my area of expertise (take that statement with a grain of salt if you would please). I can not fake my way through drums for a second. Any drums you’ll hear from my work in the near future will all have been created on a computer.

A recording and mixing engineer I certainly am not. I’m trying my best with severe limitations, and again, the results are no where near anyone’s definition of perfection.

So why do I keep at it? Well, why not? I’ve forever thought about what could have been if Fortress could have managed to remain a complete band for any serious length of time. I’m not talking fame and fortune or anything, but what would it be like just to have recordings of the songs as a complete 5 piece as we once were? What would it be like to have made those recordings and moved forward? Would we have moved forward? Would we have gotten progressively more creative and continued to write and record? Maybe we would have started playing out and built a small fan base? Maybe even one of us would have continued on in music even after Fortress was no more. Who knows?

Knowing the answers to all of those questions is beyond my control. However, getting song to tape so-to-speak is no longer beyond my control. It is now 1000 times easier to do it in the digital age than it was just a few short years before the dawn of the .com boom, the time when we were a band. I don’t need the band. I have computers and iGadgets and things like that. Just plug in and press the red button.

OK, maybe it’s not quite that simple, but I think I’ve made my point.

So, what are you doing here reading this? As much as I’d love for Fortress or any other musical project I’m attempting to be some big, professional production, it’s not. It’s me sitting at my dining room table or Jim and I in his attic. It’s me making drum arrangements with a computer program or trying desperately to master a bass line I have no business playing in the first place. Its me desperately trying to put together a passable mix of the recorded material in a different piece of software.

I don’t want to lead anyone on that I’m in some awesome 5-piece, with the potential to blow wide open any minute. It’s not like that right now. Maybe someday it will be, but then again, maybe it won’t. However, please know this. I’m having fun doing it all. I get enjoyment out of it. Sometimes it’s work, but the extra effort makes it that much more enjoyable in the end.

Would I want any of this to turn into some big professional production? Absolutely (maybe), if the circumstances were just so. But then again, who knows, maybe what I’m doing right now is actually the perfect place for me to be musically. Being part of a complete band and making records or playing shows could completely suck if it gets to that point for me. Maybe the most fun I’ll have is recording a few songs on this computer and only 5 or 10 of my closest friends and family ever actually listening to them. Whatever. I’ll take it all as it comes, whether it be just sitting at the dining room table, Jim’s attic, someone’s basement, a recording studio, inside or outside the control room, in a bar, on a stage, on a roof. Whatever. If and when it comes, I’ll try to make whatever it is as fun as possible. If it’s not fun, then what’s the point?

Right — back to why you’re reading this. Well, I’d be thrilled to just have you peek in on me every now and then to share the fun as big or as small as you think this is, or ever will be. I’m just extending an open invitation without getting anyone’s hopes up. It’s simple, stupid fun. Really. And I’d very much just like to share that with you. Feel free to c’mon back any time.

-Lee

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~ by fortressradio on March 31, 2012.

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